Surprise me.

sigh.....im in a bit of a shit at the moment. nothings actually wrong or anything, but i've just been looking forward and stuff and ive realised that i have virtually nothing to look forward to. i dunno, im just being weird, but i just feel like everything's pointless. i'll be sitting there at school in class, or at recess talking to people and it's like....so, when is something going to happen already?? i feel like im skimming over life, not really paying enough attention or experiencing it properly, which saddens me. it's so dumb that things like this make me feel sad, when it's something i wouldn't have considered a few years ago. i'm always wondering when i'm gonna be happy...okay that sounds pathetic and emo. i dont mean that im never happy...it's just that whilst im laughing theres always something else lurking...i dont remember the last time i've just felt happy, and that's it. i totally wanna be a little kid again, where you just had fun and that's it, no thoughts of school, or difficult family members or any of that crap. i think i may be losing it, perhaps subconsciously making my mind deteriorate to that of a child...i've been hanging out at parks a bit, and im always seeming to be the most immature in my house, which is bad cause my brother is 29 year old man in a 5 year old kid's body. yeaaaah.

ok so im crapping on a bit...and im totally hating myself right now cause i kinda despise blogs, how people just reveal their feelings to the internet viewing public. i dont think i really revealed anything, i just whined about stuff that is stupid, cause im stupid. people round the world have issues, real issues. im pretty fucking well off so what right do i have to complain? ok ill stop now. cause i dont need to complain. cause im good now. okay.

...okay.